mindcandy pennies from the overgenerous lunatic

I think

I think I've finally ran out of energy for the time being.

 I think I can no longer relate to certain people anymore. It's not that it is too tiring, merely that I just cant relate. I'm moving on to the next stage of my life and there are just some things I have to drop in order to move on.

I dont think I can accomodate anyone's expectations. The only expectations that truly matter are religious, parental and personal expectations. I have my own things to do too. And I dont plan to add in people who think they are so much better than me and think its a good idea to rub it in my face. If you're better than me, you prove it especially by being humble.

 I think this blog is for my own refrence only, when one day, I decide to read back on the stupid things that I wrote and remind myself "this is what I used to be" and use it to measure how much I have grown up.

I dont think I will tolerate anyone who judges me based on first impressions and/or superficial things like that. I think I've had enough of being judged for a very long time. I have my emo moments, but that does not make me emo. I have my weak moments, but that dosent mean I lack self confidence. If that is how you want to judge me, consider this as a parting letter.

I think that I am too gullible, being so easily impressed with things like humility, intergrity, righteousness, honesty and wisdom. I think I still need someone to walk me through on this, tho I think I know who to ask for this advice.

I dont think I need anyone for my survival but I will get help if it comes my way. If it dosent I wont even bother of needing someone to be there. i think. I hope i wont fail when the time comes. It has happened before though.

I still think that being honest with the nothing-to-hide policy/additute is the best way to go.

This blog isnt for popularity because I dont want any and make lots of controversies or only post only things that people want to see. thats a little too hard for me to live with. I can do it for my survival but not when I'm in a place where I can be honest. That is why I dont ping PPS or do extensive promotion for my blog.

I know I have a lot of growing up to do. And I know what I need and what I dont.

I respect people who are honest and frank, and I despise people who dont tell the truth. I respect people who are humble and I despise people who are arrogant, self centered and too full of themselves. I know what self confidence is, and it is not shoving your achievements up people's face whenever you get a chance to do so.

I'm going through a hard moment now and I need to get some things clear in order for me to have enough space and allow my thoughts to settle down.