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letting go

in reply to kyels's post about letting go, I've got a whole bankvault of stuff to offer :p

Sometimes, letting go is the hardest thing to do, and most of the time, doing so would be like to betray yourself at times. when that happens, you'd do anything to save the ship from sinking. Even when you know that the ship is sinking, you still cling on to the hope that you can salvage it and repair all the damage.

As a phrase in angel sanctuary puts it (I know its no bible, but sometimes, the content found in that twisted graphic novel can be realistic and reflect the things going on around)

No matter how many times they get hurt, humans repeat the same things over and over. Because humans are brittle and weak. Even when they know their time is coming, they still believe.

rest assured, that I am not as what the quote is.

This is hope my friend. Will you still cling on to dear life even when you have cancer, instead of ending it all due to the pain and all, that your body is hopeless? Would you still hope, and try all the cures there are, and even when there are none, you'd do anything in your power so that you'll stay alive or at least lessen the pain. Why choose that and endure the pain when you can end it all with just a needle or a stab?

why hang on although it hurts so much? Is it only for the loved ones alone? or is it becase there is something else?

hope?

but with hope, pain always ensures, no matter what happens. No matter if the change desired is good or bad, or if it comes true or not, there will always be pain with hope.

Letting go is as easy as destroying hope, and that is what our dear friend vincent van goh did when he ran out of them: he killed himself because there isnt really any meaning to life without hope. Hope is what colours our black and white dramas. Hope is what initiates love. Hope is what makes people to go on although they are wounded or they are too weak or incapable phsysically.

Hope is, what painted the most wonderful pictures in the world.

but to hang on to hope unrealistically would be fatal. One must learn to let go of hope when it is due. And not the way vincent did.

letting go of hope is simply destroying the branch of it, for hope is like a great lake that branches out to many rivers (the aspects of our lives, such as love, in people, in things) and by building a dam to clog up that section of the river when one of the rivers gets out of control and starts destroying other things. Sometimes, the dam may burst due to it unable to ocntain the endless flow of water but eventually, it will be sealed, and the water going through will eventually stop or be limited, allowing more hope to focus on other channels.

This is my definition of letting go. It is a little abstract, but well, that is how I work anyway :p