mindcandy pennies from the overgenerous lunatic

Holding on

You know, many of you would have already known about me holding on to a friend that has dumped me, and the pain was really too much for me to digest.

but in the end, it was I who caused these single handedly. I was the one who pushed him away. I was the one who did all the wrongs in the first place. Perhaps, I may have been hurt, but all the same I saw that he was the one who was hurt as well.

Now that I have realized my mistakes and vow never to commit them ever again, do you think the situation can turn back? That friend of mine is waiting to see a "change" in me. Whether or not I have, you can be the judge.

Perhaps, this friend of mind should have known all along, the person he was disgusted with wasnt me all along, it was just my emotional self taking center stage, overwhelming my logic and reasoning and blinding me from the truth he tried to deliver, but in vain. Whether or not he knows? does he even realize? Is this the end to all the trust he placed in me, and all that I have placed in him?

I have no need for pity for myself or from anyone else. I have commited a crime, and if this is the punishment I need to undergo, so be it.

But I do hope that my prosecutor be merciful and release me from the chains of remorse he has bound me for I have regret and repented.