mindcandy pennies from the overgenerous lunatic

indigestion keeping me awake

yes its 3am and i was up since 2.30 due to allergies manifesting (my neck and chest itches like the crotch of a _________ and there is no way for me to stop it omg wtf) and my stomach feels like i stuffed a horse down it: bloated and fat *DOES MOAR PUSHUPS*

anyways, i can pretty much concur that my makeover failed because

1) my hair grew long and now everytime i clay it with the cheaper and much older grey gabsty moving rubber (WHICH SUCKS, BTW) it automatically makes my hear look super saiyan. no i am not kiddings. and i am so not willing to cut my hair just yet, i want it to grow longer so that i can has one of those wapanese haircuts that make me look japanese and foreign even tho i am 100% chinese malaysian. Not to mention that professional haircuts nowadays even for guys costs close to 50 smackeroos and anything below that makes you look like a) a nerd b) a loser c) someone who looks like edward sissorshand paid a visit. I still cannot bring myself to dig up gobs of the more expensive osis+ hair gunk because well, it is more expensive. Each dig into the can feels like digging into my asshole, which is painful, uncomfortable, and worse of all, horrifying.

2) I DONT HAVE THE MONIES OMG WHERE HAS ALL MONIES GONE. The first 4 months of my salary all went to paying outstanding loans and also my iphone. No like i have said a gazillion times before it was because a friend offered to me with a deal i could not refuse. Then, there is the other other loans that basically left me poor like a hobo and nuthing for my makeover thingy. This is kinda seriuse as my work clothes all suck (mainly because they were bought at discounted joints being the jew i am) and since i was new to this lolwut office thing. I plan to get my clothing from g2000 unless anyone has better solutions on how to get good quality shirts at good prices.

3) i posted a thread at the lowyat and i did get some helpful feedbacks on what to do but again a lot of drama in the process. Looks like i need to get a watch, better clothes (that fit and dosent poof up like mary poppins) and something other than a backpack (butbutbut i love backpacks bawww they said it was baaaad) and of course who could forget the oversensitib peepurs who decided to take offense when i thought messenger bags was girly? *HUGE MEGA FACEPALM*. it's bad enough that metrosexuals are branded to be gays and oversensitive but this is more or less perpetuating that very sterotype...*rolleyes* cmon la the comments about me twiddling my thumbs and humming the smurfs IS offensive but its just that i dont wanna take offense so why should you with my silly opinions instead of trying to change it? bawwwwwwwwwwwwwwww

anyway you can read the whole thing here: http://forum.lowyat.net/topic/1026495

4) lady gaga developed her style with the help of only 1 friend and lots of cocaine and she didint ask around like the idiot i am so why should i like ask people around? the peepurs in the forumz are already butthurt that i found their tastes disagreeable and someone already told me to dress the way i am comfortable with. Hrmmmm but anyway next step is gonna be getting one of those swiss metal bottles to replace my plastic one (plastic one will be from now on reserved for trips that require alot of water, since the nice metal ones only come in nice patterns for the 1l and only red and blue for 1.5l. but rm 30 for that extra 500ml.....functionality over style or style over functionality? I ARE CONFUSED AREGGHHHHH MAI HEAD AH NOES AH WIL POOOST EIN ZEE FLOUMS EIN ARZK DOES GAIS.

planning the makeover and trying hard to make it work is fun because i am actually doing something to redefine the person i am. Its not just about looking good but rather the ability to carry out and bring out certain aspects of you that you want people to see and that you can somewhat embody what you are and want to achieve. Its a more fun way at attracting success as well as the right people since people are suckers for 1st impressions and yadda yadda yadda anyway. And to quote lady gaga on this:

“It’s not about everyone knowing who you are, it’s everybody wanting to know who you are.
“Every time I get on the stage office or anywhere else, I do something different.
“I want people to think, ‘Every time I have this bitch /b/tard nailed down, shehe does something different.’-

CHEW ON THAT BIATCHES *SNORT*