mindcandy pennies from the overgenerous lunatic

when shit hits the ceiling

when you work so hard to achieve something and everything fizzles, its very hard to not feel dissapointed. But well shit happens and its happening right now in the blender. It happened a few months ago and I'm still kinda upset and phobic about it.

Lack of sleep due to mysterious insomia may have been getting in to me but I know the truth.

oh well. it dosent make that much of a diffrence if things go on all right all fine and fancy. It feels the same way deep inside.

but really, when a priviliedge that you always had, rarely used suddenly gets taken away, it's pretty hard. even harder is that you realize that you've been careless and repeat some old mistakes. It's kinda tiring.

I guess there is room to improve.

World of warcraft

so with a lil persuasion from all quarters, I decided to jump on the world of warcraft ship with all the orcs and elves. It's pretty addictive, I might say, but I'm confident that I can cut it off. Really confident.

I've been addicted to it sleepless for 10 days now, and insomia is driving me nuts. The insomia problem may or may not be caused by WoW but I dont know for sure unless I stop playing with it for a week and lag behind all my friends in terms of level. It's just a game. And anyway, its an experience. Gonna move on to the public server very soon for various reasons. Namely because the private sever has too many idiots in it and all you do see are the same people day in and day out.

But then, I just want the experience and a private server is cutting me short of it.

Lets see how do I fare in this test of grits between me and my newfound addiction. gonna cut it off after I try out the public server.