mindcandy pennies from the overgenerous lunatic

Everything??!??

Gahhhh!! So, now my parents are forcing me to college without first bringing me to a trip >_< it’s so sad. I have decided to go with Computer Engineering and it is gonna be hell for a lazy person like me. I hope Elise doesn’t really mind my decision…oh well, she never does, in her effort to become the world’s best wife (Wives are not supposed to question their husband’s actions, nor are they suppose to criticize or go against it.)

So now, now is midnight here in Malaysia and I’m still downloading Pretty Face chapter 23. 12 more chapters to go!! Whee!! But the freaky thing about the manga is not only that Randoh Mahsashi became to look like the girl he likes, his post Yuna behavior is also like me: hated by almost the entire school. We have our bad traits, although trying to be as bad as him is nearly impossible for me.

GAHHHHH!! Those Elken cholstrum cookies are evil!! I ate too much and they gave me sore throat and a body overheat. Lots of water and better herbal tea… Lots of water and better herbal tea… Lots of water and better herbal tea…feeling a lot better now, except for that nasty headache bugging me…>_<

Better Christmas

Yep, Christmas is fast approaching. It’s just next week!! It’s the time of the year again to give, give and give to people (of course, not anyone on the roadside lol) as a sign that we are grateful to that person…we appreciate that person in our life…that’s at least what Elise told me to celebrate for a non-Christian like us. But there is one more thing (or a few more) about this year’s Christmas that makes it extra special: Elise’s Irish and Japanese cousins are coming over to Malaysia to celebrate Christmas with her and her family, including me XD!! Most probably, they will know me as the unrelated brother lol. That was how my relationship with Elise started as…we were brothers and sisters when we love each other too much XD

Other than that, one of MY cousins (not hers) might be marrying before Chinese New Year. That is 2 things for Christmas XD XD XD. Because of this, I will most probably not go to Gempak 2003, but of course I will try my best to go…most probally I’ll let you guys know when Elise comes back from Japan on the 22nd. And then again, she is more important than Gempak. But Mask-chan and everyone else from MCC will be at Gempak. But still, Elise is a lot more important. Elise. ELISE!!

Now that I’m free before my college starts, which obviously means NO MORE FREE TIIIMMEEE!!!! I have to start stocking my manga like no tomorrow. So far, I’ve downloaded Kimi Wa Pet and I’m now downloading Pretty Face!!! I love manga and love stories which depicts strange love lol.

But anyways, I have to bonk Shafiq now. It turns out that he was lazy in answering my phone calls.

Now, to continue laughing at the manga...

Breaking apart

All along since SPM ended, I was in brainless Joey mode, where it is a time where I refuse to use my brain for most activities as it is too painful to do so. It’s not that I can’t but I simply refuse to use it for processing and in the end quite a lot of damage has been done to me and others. Now, as if summoned, I’m going to be like what I used to be before SPM started. I’m going to use my brain again as it is no longer painful to use it now.

I’ve been using it to do some deep thinking lately and I found out that a lot of things has changed since I last noticed. Quite a number of friends from MCC can no longer be contacted, namely Harle and Heal, not only that Heal doesn’t even update his blog, and the most he said at CF to me was Hi, as if he erased everything he knew about me. There is now no more school for me to worry about, no more people where I have to pretend to be someone that I am not, but it has left some sort of vacuum in me. Certain things that I had no chance to appreciate are now gone for good. Elise and Shafiq are now on vacation and I’m stuck here in my own home, with only my somber thoughts as a companion.

The internet itself has been a lot emptier. Megatokyo no longer updates its comic daily. No one’s blog is regularly updated [click any link on the left] (Including mine, only when my parents are here). Message boards are either filled with boring threads, instead of interesting ones or your comments ignored by people. The MCC chatroom is now emptier than before, since Jace and Sets is no longer around. There are no more good online webcomics since Megatokyo and Exploitation Now. There is no one on ICQ or MSN that I can really chat with. The only thing that I get online is harassments from some people that bear animosity towards me who do not care about my side of the story and identity thefts (someone purposely registered my IRC nickname, preventing me from using it ever again) Ragnarork Online is starting to get boring, at least for me...

Maybe it’s just me or is everyone on holiday during this season?

But looking at my own behavior, I have been trying to be as nice as I can to everyone, trying my very best not to hate anyone or make anyone angry but unfortunately, it seems that no matter how hard I try, someone still hates me. I’m gotta get through this alone. I’ve gotta do this on my own. I have to be numb towards those unkind comments hurled towards me. But I can’t. And now I’m breaking apart, and I break, and I will reconstruct myself once I’m reduced to dust.

Now, I feel guilty for just being a t.A.T.u fan, after reading this

BTW check the text files section. I have wrote a song lyric there.

BRATS!!

My maternal grandmother and a few young cousins came over to KL from Malacca on Friday. We walked around KLCC and then had a big buffet at a hotel on Saturday. After that me and my elder cousins went to Ampang Park to dye THEIR hair (my parents would kill me if I did so even if it was in an unnoticeable shade, which is, well, practically a waste of money, if you ask me coz why dye your hair when no one notices it?) and they ended up with uneven hair colour as a result of having hair students to dye their hair to save money lol. I had to wait there from 2pm-6pm before we make off to Times Square and I had diarrhea from 2am-6am and 10am-5pm on Sunday >_< but after a trip to the doctor everything is alright now. My parents blamed it on the sushi which they said was not prepared properly and hygienically which resulted in my diarrhea.

Now, if there was one thing that was a little bit more worse than going to the toilet so many times till your bottom hurts are annoying little brats that are arrogant and greedy. The worst thing is, there is not one but 3 of them >_< because of these few things.

1) At the hotel. Yeah, I know that they are from a village and they never set foot in a hotel having a buffet before, but being 11 years old and skipping round the hotel lobby while children younger than you sit down quietly like the adults and even ignoring me is downright BRATTY. It was so embarrassing for me for other people to think that we are from some kind of village where our children are undisciplined so I lost my temper and scolded him not to do so when my parents and grandparents were not looking. Thank goodness he stopped that.

2) My room. Even my friends who enter it dare not sit on the bed, especially with dirty feet and all but these guys even lie on it with the feet on top of it!! That is just so outrageous…I mean, it’s okay if they sit there and leave a space for me but no, they had to hog all the space on my bed and using it like a couch as if the bed was theirs. I had to keep quite on this one, though…

3) For just being bratty and a diva. Who the heck do you think you are using my father around like a driver taking you to and fro Shah Alam from Cheras? Can’t you at least come yourself and be a little less selfish and a lot better mannered by taking a cab or a bus or getting your friend to take you here or something? That way, you will earn my respect instead of my wrath.

Oh well, even though I’m angry, I always remind myself that they are just kids and that it’s okay if they do not have any manners or that they do not think of others and that I still have lots of flaws to correct. Oh well. We can’t be too angry or bear too much animosity at someone because in the end, it’s gonna hurt you more than it hurts the person whom you hate. Believe me, I’ve gone through this, so I know…

Problems?

You know what, I have to put up with a really obnoxious father. Why was I given a father like this? I answered the phone and he asked me who is it when it doesn’t concern him. Furthermore, I already told my grandmother who was it, and I’m pretty sure that he heard, and that’s 2 reasons
to get irritated, and I answered him “aiyah, it’s the auntie”. He then went into a fit of rage and started scolding me saying that I was rude to him. How is that even rude? What the fucking heck in those words that made me sound rude? Aiyah is just a damm slang, for crying out loud. He even shooed me out of his room as if I was an animal or something. I’m never going to forget that. Never. And now, 2 hours after the incident he is ignoring me. The cold shoulder, the cruelest of
all the physiological attacks.

I know that other fathers would be angry and punish their children, but I’m sure they would not burst into a fit of rage over this small matter. As his son, I find it highly unreasonable to do so. There is still a limit, although I’m supposed to give him all the respect he can get but still, there is an invisible limit and once it breaks, it will be irrecoverable. I can
tolerate physical force, but using emotional and physiological attacks against me hurts me a lot more than those bruises, and the fact that they will never heal makes it worse. And as always, I have to beat the irony and apologize. I always do so, regardless of whoever is right or wrong because I hate arguments. So, in the end everyone’s happy. However, despite me putting up with all this shit with certain people (obviously, not my father as that is what I’m supposed to do) they still want to have animosity towards me and not enough with that, get others to hate me as well. If you had been following my blog since August you should have known who. There is actually more than one person doing this to me all the time. They have no social life as someone with one try their very best not to make another person feel uncomfortable. I’d like to see them in their workplace and all the enemies they have.
 
*shoves all that into the Box of Sorrow...*
 
Okay, nothing much to talk about. Nolah, not really. First of all, I plan to be Inuyasha for Gempak 03 in addition to being Kyou Sohma and/or Ranma and/or Yanigida. Should I be all 3 characters or should I go as only one? If I go as Kyou Sohma what should I do on the cosplay stage? We are supposed to go solo in Gempak. What kind of temporary hair dye should I use for
Kyou? Should I spend some moolah in the hair salon or should I use an orange wig and style it with L’Oreal Studio FX Invisigel <---- Elise recommended after seeing the CF hair disaster. Secondly, I will not be online on Friday, which is technically, today (hey, I’m doing this in the midnight, soo…) as my father will have a leave on that day. He will be hogging me for the day XP.
 And about my room cleaning progress after 2 days. And now, since I have a digital camera, here’s some shots of my half-cleaned room... 
ladies and gentlemen, I present you, a guided tour of my room!
 
My computer table...looks more like a war zone...

Lookies! my room which I'm sharing with the god of wind

my study table, after SPM moved out from it.

if you think this is messy, you should see it before I
cleaned it up...

...with most of these in it.
  Ahh~ I have not done a midnight online session for quite some time...tonight is my first time in 4 months. The reason that I could do so was because of the incident above, since my dad won’t care about whatever I do and I gotta get something out of my chest,.Time to rebound with the midnight MCC members =P. I’m excited!! XD XD XD
 
About the song playing: I got nostalagic when I saw the theme song for Beautiful Life...the first ever Japanese Drama that I ever watched...ah, the memories...

OMG!! Now only I know that Keitsu is MagicWeaver’s stepdaughter!! XD…and how stupid am I in not knowing that Mask-chan is having her exam now XP!! I forgot to wish her good luck!! GOOD LUCK MASK-CHAN!!